I draw in!

I could cry

I wish

I want to feed the emotion,

but I can’t.  I don”t.

Instead, I draw back.  Not willing to pull forward.  To draw in.

And yet, I wonder why at the same time I know the truth and the depth and the reality…..

i AM scared.

to be

to feel

to draw in – instead of pull away.

I pull away

As in fear.  As in joy.

I fucking pull away from joy

WOW!

I inhale

I pull close

I draw in!